The News

Mediumship with Paul Dees

Last night I did something very unusual for me, I rescheduled my yoga class so I could go to a lecture in Warren. This is probably the second or third time in six years I've fiddled with my teaching schedule, but something about Paul and Deborah Rees' talk at the Meg TC was calling to me. At first I was a bit disappointed, I'm not really into mediumship, and while their stories of getting into the biz were interesting, it was nothing to jump up and down over. I did really like what Paul said about language getting in the way of communication. So often spiritual discussions get derailed over word choice. I like the word God, some prefer Spirit, or Divine, or Allah, or Yahweh, but why should our conversation grind to a halt over names? 

That was good and I was glad that someone else was talking about the horrors of semantics, but I still wasn't sure why I was there… and then the mediumship demonstrations began. They work very well together, better than any team I've ever seen before. They way they would pass off to each other when one was stuck or stalled was very smooth and played to each of their strengths. 

They started on the other side of the room, but quickly started coming to people over near me. There were over 50 people in the room, but aside from the first 2 everyone they talked to was within a few feet of me – this always happens. I don't like to be read in public so when I am at a gallery reading (usually with a friend who does like it) I shield hard and picture myself surrounded by Teflon coating, just let the attention slide off to the side. After three or four people Paul turned to me and said "Sorry, I need to speak to the gentleman in the black shirt." Me. "You shine so bright it's hard to see (words to this effect I wasn't taking notes). You are a healer, right? You need to keep your focus and not let anyone tell you otherwise or distract you from your path. You are on the right path and need to focus on healing and mediumship and you have talent with trance mediumship as well."

And then he moved on.

Wow, I was not expecting that, but it was great and what I needed to hear. I loved that instead of opening with some dead relative or bringing up names and events the way he was with everyone else (which was the point, it was a Mediumship demonstration, after all), he cut right to the point, told me what I needed to hear and moved on.

It's been a tough summer for me. Business has been very slow, money has been crazy tight and I have been doubting. I've even found myself thinking about getting a regular job again and then having to go lay down lest I barf on the carpet. I know I am a very good teacher, psychic and lecturer. I've also started doing a bit of healing work and been very pleased with the results – I've even started planning how to offer healing services to the public. Even so, nothing takes the wind out of your sails like a really bad few months.

This unexpected message from Paul Rees was exactly what I needed to get me focused and moving again, to push away the doubt and I am very grateful.

Wisdom

" Wisdom is one of the few things that looks bigger the further away it is. – Terry Pratchett 

ColumbineIt is easy to find great wisdom and mysticism in far eastern religions, illuminated scrolls from far away and long ago, and deep meaning in confusing koans and riddles – but to find the sacred in the every day, the wisdom in normal conversation and the mystic in the mundane – That is the challenge and the goal of wisdom.

Still working on it…

Discounts Now Available

Discounts now available for Military and StarAchieving Artists!

 

Use the coupon codes Military for 20% off of all readings for military personnel and veterans!  Over the past few years I have had the privilege of reading for a few members of the armed forces, both active and retired.  It has been a lesson for me to see both the benefits and dangers to these brave men and women and as long as the USA is involved in conflict I will be offering a 20% discount on readings for all military personnel and veterans.

 

Use the coupon code StarAchieving Artist for 20% off readings, cds and dvds for all artists striving for the stars!  I spent years calling myself, and thinking about myself, as a starving artist.  What a terrible way to think about yourself and what a rotten thing to affirm - I am an Artist, but I'm not starving!  For all you artists you still waiting for the rest of the world to recognise you as the great talent you already know you are, I support you and I know you can make it, take 20% off.  Thanks to SARK for the idea.

What's Next

DarkColumbineThis past week was the last night of my eight week class, Energy Anatomy - Power and Practice.  It was an amazing class and I loved seeing these students gain confidence in their own abilities and spiritual connection.  We meditated together, prayed together and healed together - I learned so much from this group, even as they learned from me, and on the last day they asked me, "what next?" 

What next indeed.  Our final exercise of the night was a healing circle and one by one we sat in the center while energy, healing and light were called.  While sitting in that circle of energy I got the idea for an ongoing group - a night for people to come together, explore their psychic abilities and talk about their spiritual paths.

Starting August 3rd I will be leading an evening of Psychic Exploration and Spiritual Discussion, meeting the first Wednesday of the Month, 7:30pm at my home in Youngstown, please call 330-519-6558 if you need directions.

Each session I will lead exercises in psychic development, we will discuss our spiritual paths and we will join in meditation, class will be about 2 hours - suggested donation of $20 or what ever you can afford.  This is a time for us to gather, explore, and share our gifts.

Our first class:

Look Into My Eyes

There is something so powerful and personal about looking into another's eyes.  We cheat and look past people, our eyes flit around to avoid the personal connection that comes from deep eye contact, but the eyes are the windows to the soul we will be opening up the blinds.

Psychic Exploration and Spiritual Discussion  First Wednesday of the Month.

Honor the Magic Within - Spring 2011

Thanks to Jane DuPerow and the crew out in Avon Lake for inviting back to her show, Honor The Magic Within!  This episode we talked about seeing auras, what chakras are and I did a Aura Drawing and interpretation on air.  It was a great show and you can watch it online!

 

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Welcome to Summer!

The energies of Mother Earth have felt riled and almost violent these past few weeks. For the first time in ages my sleep is troubled and I find my energy drained. The only times I have felt at peace are while teaching, meditating and during yoga. I suppose I should just do more of that!

If you are filling similarly unsettled I encourage you to take some time with the trees, they feel the disturbances in the Earth even more keenly that we do, but have the perspective to flow with the changes.

FlashyTroutBackLettuceMy garden is mostly in, the weather has not been cooperating, but no point in fighting it. I'm trying fava beans this year and they are the only things growing like gangbusters. I also have some remarkably beautiful lettuce by the name of Flashy Trout's Back Lettuce and Drunken Woman Frizzy Haired Lettuce. I buy all my lettuces for their names.

Scant announcements this issue, but Camille opens this weekend at the Victorian Players in Youngstown and marks my return to the stage after twelve years. It is a wonderful production with an entirely new translation by Thomas Copeland.

FavaFor the first time I will be teaching two versions of the same class simultaneously. Energy Anatomy – Power and Practice has gotten off to a lovely start with an extraordinary group that already feels cozy and encouraging. In July I will be teaching a weekend version of the same class and calling it Energy Anatomy Part 1, at the Silver Branch in Ashtabula, OH. It will be fascinating to see the differences with similar material taught in different formats. It promises to be electric!

Brew yourself some garden fresh mint tea, pour it over ice and enjoy the summer. Catch a lightning bug, feel the grass between your toes and feel the Earth spin under your feet.

 

UPDATE: Energy Anatomy Part 1 at The Silver Branch has been rescheduled for September 17th and 18th!

Meditations on Camille

I'm in a play for the first time in 12 years and I don't know how I feel about it yet.

Over the last few years I've been spending more and more time on stage, teaching and lecturing, but I am working just with a few notes and the knowledge in my head. I'm not up there pretending to be anyone other than myself, and I have grown very comfortable with it. I love being in front of an audience and having the immediate feedback that 40-50 faces can give you. I love the look on a person's face when something suddenly makes sense, or when just two or three people in a crowd laugh at a subtle joke; even better when the whole group laughs! That immediate interaction feels like an evolution of the stage-work I did in my teens and twenties. 

CamilleNow I am back in a theater I spent many an hour and day in when I was younger. I still remember which stairs creek and how to avoid making noise during the show. I can see everything that has changed these past twelve years and what has stayed the same. I miss the people who have gone. Some faces stay the same and the feel of the theater is unchanged, but I have changed. I have changed immensely these last ten years and being back in this place with it's captured memories and forgotten energies is bringing back thoughts, fears, and insecurities I thought I have overcome. Petty jealousies and hidden doubts I thought were long gone have reared their ugly heads and shown me how much work I still have to do on my spiritual path.

This time has also highlighted some of the weaknesses and forgotten pieces of my current life. How I have tried to push aside frivolous fun and "work" that is not for obvious spiritual or monetary gain. It seems odd to put those two things in the same sentence, but when your job is psychic work and teaching they start to fall together sometimes. I can justify a class or social gathering that I might otherwise pass up if it will be with others in the biz, or might bring new contacts and opportunities where a purely social night out can seem like a waste of time and money.

Have I forgotten how to have fun? Do I no longer do things because they are fun and joyous, but only if they have benefit (ignoring that enjoyment and happiness are benefits)? I don't know, and I'm a bit worried about that.

When I was asked to be in this play (I didn't audition, the director called me out of the blue), I felt guilty about accepting. I should be doing something "productive." As soon as I identified that feeling I said yes. It had the feel of a lesson that needed learning, but I'm still not sure what the lesson/test is - and what is the correct response. When I first checked my calendar and had no conflicts with either rehearsals or performances, I thought it was meant to be. Now conflicts are appearing and I am afraid.

What if the lesson is that I must choose between my spiritual work and business and having an outside life? I cannot accept that. Life should have choices besides survival. Fun and outside exploration have to exist in life, but what if the lesson is to turn away from distractions? That doesn't feel right, but it lines up with a reoccurring fear.

This past weekend I was talking to a friend who had recently traveled to South America to meet with John of God. I was struck by his descriptions of how the entire community worked together, partly unconsciously and partly by design, to bring you the lessons and answers you sought. It wasn't always a direct answer from the prophet. It was words and omens from all around you, often where you least expect. By the time you left you had your answer, but probably not what or from where you were expecting.

Since he told me about his experiences I have been looking around me and noticing how much that happens in my life now, and how often I try to ignore omens and messages that I don't want to hear, but the other day I got an e-mail from the play's director that stopped me.

Stopped me in every way, for a moment I don't even think the blood moved in my veins. The phrasing he used was so similar to the way I talk in my readings that there was no mistaking it for anything but a Message. "After all, you are not expected to give up everything for art, just most of it."

Substitute God for Art.

There are times I feel like I have given up so much in this Spiritual Journey. There are times when I feel I have been given so much in this Spiritual Journey. There are times I am terrified about what else I will have to give up in this Spiritual Journey.

All the time I am thirsty for what else I will be given on this Spiritual Journey.

Will my fears get the best of me? Do I have the fortitude to do what will be asked of me or will I chicken out? What are the lessons I am to be learning here?

I know that it often takes much time to understand the lessons and tests on our path. That will not keep my from wrestling with them and struggling for clarity.

The first lesson, and oft repeated lesson, is you take yourself wherever you go. I find myself talking about my work and practice during rehearsals. I share about yoga and psychic readings. Were ever I go, there I am, taking this new focus and life with me.

 

Addendum: We open tomorrow and I am still learning. Once again I see that I am still a jealous, vain, and often egotistical person. I am harshly critical of myself and others.

I have endless patience for those struggling to understand themselves and open their eyes to the world around them. I am deeply curious about how people work and why they act the way they do. I have great compassion for people who care, and none for those who don't. If you don't really care about what you are doing, be it reciting a monologue or moving a bit of scenery – don't do it. As Cayce said (paraphrasing), Do what comes to hand – and do it with mindfulness and grace.

We open tomorrow and I am watching this episode of my life with great interest, intent on understanding it's place in the greater arc of my life. It may be that this has only been a visit to my past, highlighting what has changed and what hasn't. In all likelihood the ending, the message is still to come. A growth opportunity. Another %^%$*&# growth opportunity.

I shall endeavor to take it with grace.

Be The Light Now Recording 4/28/2011

April 28th was my first appearance on Be the Light Now! with host Michael Carbone.  Listen on BlogTalkRadio.com, Download the episode on iTunesor listen to the show right here!  It was a great show, very exciting, this iwas my first time working with Michael and his amazing show.